ok... this is my second xanga in one month... but hopefully this one actually WORKS.

www.xanga.com/whenigodown_x

visit it and leave a buncha comments. k? k.

alright ppls, my other xanga's having a huge meltdown and won't behave.... so it's under constrction and may not be up and running for a lil.

kk? kk.

NEW XANGA!!!!

www.xanga.com/ThisLifeSentance_x

i'll still use this one, but that's my new one. i'll basicly just post song lyrics and poems... mostly by me, but maybe others that i just ended up liking or something. so yeah. subscribe please. i still have to go down THIS subscription list and subscribe to everyone again. ugh.

later yall

-=car*ssa=-

the queen of glass

sorry for the lack of update. i just know this is gnna be a really long post and have been neglecting to do it.

so this past weekend was .OMG. purple door .OMG. and the most amazing weekend of almost my whole life... wow. it was great. let's start... somewhere. well, the pictures will help me guide myself thru... but sorry if i start getting off track. slap me or something. or, the computer. whatever. OK....

so we were on our way there all excited and everything...

 mo Nique dear on the way there... all excited and crap... yep she looks mad excited, huh? haha love ya monique

ok so then we all fell asleep on the way there... out of our extreme excitement.. ok so we really were excited... just tired. anywho... i wake up to this major dragging, loud, popping noise... and i'm like, wth? and so then monique wakes up at about the same time and is like, wth? and so we both ask lorrie and larissa, wth? and they're both like, "the muffler fell off." and we're like, oh, yay. so we go to this fix it shop who sends us to another fix it shop who sends us to yet ANOTHER fix it shop... so we go there and were like, "frick it's gnna cost us to get this stupid muffler fixed, huh?" and the guy's like, "well, yeah." and then lorrie's like, "larissa, come here. Show this man your legs." and so larissa does and he's like, "alright i'll take the muffler off for free." so yeah... when you're in car trouble... larissa's legs will see you thru.

yeahhh there she is...the top half of her that is. her legs are too pretty to put on here. haha.

so we went to the hotel, swam for a while, watched "hogan knows best" (well, ok not that order. got to the hotel, watched hogan knows best then went swimming... but whatever) anywho... then it was OFF TO PURPLE DOOR!!! OMG OMG OMG.... ok well after like, stopping so that monique could GO GET HER TICKET and larissa could run in and do other stuff... but then we left.

we got in the parking lot and were all excited... but there was this like, huge line so we got bored and larissa pulled out her camara.

me actually looking excited.

anywho... ok so we waited in like for like, an hour or so and then FINALLY got in.... then we were walking around and looking at stuff, buying my ticket... listening to this speaker guy talk about porn stars... yeah. that was disturbing. anywho... then  <3me without you<3!!!

larissa's best friend Mike.

yay!

Aaron!!!

This man is amazing... leme tell ya.

these one's are jonnies.

guy from psalters

MIKE!

aaron and larissa... what happened was... totally amazing, btw... ok... we went around looking for aaron and thought like, a million ppl were him till we finally found mike... and he's all, "i don't know where aaron is but you can go look for him..." and then he came back to us later and was like, "he's on our bus... you can go peek your head in and see if he will come out. i'm sure he will" but we kinda.... walked onto the bus. but yeah anyway, he signed larissa's shirt, and yeah all that. it was exciting. he's amazing.

monique, aaron!, larissa, me

so we went around and stuff and bought shirts and crap and then went to the art show stage (or whatever you wanna call it) and saw madison greene

they're amazing. anywho... then we met up with larissa's friend amy... she's awesome... love that girl. and yeah we all hung out, found jonnie... and yeah. hung out.

jonnie's gay picture

larissa and me

then we hung out for a lil longer... then went back to the hotel. it was so fun... we stayed up late watching the crow... scary movie, leme tell ya. ugh.

anyway, we woke up around 6 and left around like, what... 7? maybe. anywho then we went to the store and bought ice... (thank God... we needed it. it got HOT out man.) then we went back to .OMG. purple door .OMG.

HM stage.

hawk nelson... who did terrible... and this dude hadda like, entertain us for like, a half hour cuz they were late. it sucked. and we sat out there listening to him talk and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk... ugh. gayyyy let me tell ya.

then the FUNNNN began... muahahaha. this is where my life flipped upside down and i fell in love... with some guy who's 11 years older than me... let me explain.

but first, a picture of mewithoutyou's bus.

ok... ready for this? alright so larissa and lorrie and i went and sat out in the shade for about an hour... then larissa and i went and custum made these t-shirts... and mine said "matt t.'s future wife" and her's said "aaron w.'s future wife". so we were walking back with our awesome t-shirts (oh and btw they didn't have e's... so we had to write them on.) and there, right THERE... about 15 feet in front of me is the most lovely adoreable sexy most perfect man i have ever seen.... Matt Thiessen of Relient k. it was CRAZY... i was about to pass out... so i stop everything i'm doing... including walking and i think i was in mid sentence... and of course, larissa didn't see him and so she kept walking and here i am like, "OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG" and larissa's all, "WTH!?" looks where i'm looking and is like, "OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG" and so we both are standing there like, "OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG" and then larissa gets over it... and i'm like, hyperventalating... and she's all, "dang cari calm down" and i kinda all the sudden am calm and like, "oh hey look there's dave." (their drummer) and larissa's all, "OMG OMG OMG OMG WHERE?!?!?!" and so we're both hyperventalating. and here's the hottie..:

sexxxayyyy.

so the downside to all this is..... LARISSA was all, he looks pretty frazzled, let's come back later. so i agreed (and kick myself for it) and we came back and he was like, SOOOOOOOOOO Not there.... well, he was for a lil... but these lil dorkfaces were INTERVIEWING him... and he looked so annoyed.... but anyway.... i missed him... *tear* LARISSA. cough. anywho... then we just went and hung out with everyone else and yah... *pIcTuReS*

larissa, me, jon.

Nique, Amy, me, larissa. my favorite girls on the planet!! <3 ya

aaron and this other guy just standing there...

that would be Aaron picking up his shirt...the shirt that was hanging on the side of the bus all day...the shirt that I was going to steal.

the gaytard jonnie and me arguing with me about world peace. ok, not really. about judging. and driving me nutso. lol. he always wins. jon, you're a jerk.

goodbye mewithoutyou

ok so then we went walking around looking for Thiessen... and found brently instead... and he was OMG gnna give us OMG ALL ACCESS PASSES TO THE RELIENT K SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he was going to give them to us after copeland. and so we're all, HECK YES!!!! and yeah. he's my best friend as of then.

larissa and i dancing to copeland... and i look SO GAY i could SUE.

we went and got the passes from Brent and Josh and hugged them both, and we went in. the back.

lol so now larissa's josh martin and i'm brent ulrich.

Dave setting up. we were on the stage. uh huh.

Then a storm was supposed to be coming, so we couldn't be on the stage anymore. so yeah we watched the show from the back.

Thiesson and Hoopes getting ready

Relient K playing from behind

so hott

Dave. and us.

lari and thiessen... ugh so hott. thiessen, not larissa. lol jay kay larissa.

Uh huh.

Hoopes!

more later, i hafta go...

*TO BE CONTINUED*

alright, well i guess i should continue this stupid thing. there's actually not much more to continue. we met relient k, we left... almost in tears. i miss purple door sooooo much. larissa and i are like, obcessing over it. we want to go back and cry in all the places where we met relient k, me without you, her special, watched showbread, all that. we're so stupid larissa. i love us.

anywho, i don't feel like updating this retarted thing, so i'm done. i'm gnna make a new xanga pretty soon i think. and a myspace. i'll still use this one tho. just cuz it's cool like that. i'll post my new one when i get it.

later peeps

*.i . was . made . for . loving . you . baby. you . were . made . for . loving . me.*

-=car*ssa=-

the queen of glass

***************EDIT*******************

Matthew Thiessen is so beautiful. i mean, look at that face, man...

ooohhhh lordy lordy. be still my heart....<333

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alright. a lil more advertizing. yall NEED to come to our worship night on sunday... it shall be the bomb... again, it's sunday night at 7 at Blue Ball Church. if you need directions... i can't give them to you. ha, you'll hafta ask someone with a good sence of direction... like, mapquest, or something.

************END EDIT***********

alright.......

so i was gnna wait until HANNAH and DAN updated their sites (cough hint cough hint) so i could get the PICTURES of their SITES but i guess i'll update now since they're SO SLOW.

so the camping weekend ROCKED. we had so much fun. especially dan and hannah and i. wow, we're weird. ok, i'll start at the beginning. so dan was walking around and randomly came and found me when i got there (thank goodness. i didn't hafta search the campground up and down looking for them) and so we went around looking for everyone else... when we soon found out that anthony had brought his halo 2 (ugh) and so we had to sit and watch them play taht for a while... till we got really bored so we went in dans car (he just got his licence... like, 4 days beforehand) and blasted gwen stafani (the most amazing woman on the face of the planet) and then kristin and lauren got there so then we hung out for a lil... then ppl quit playing halo so we hung out with them for a lil... thennn dan and kristin went to his car again and the windows were all foggy cuz of the humidity... so it looked very... uh... strange. LOL. they were just talking too much tho... mind you.

so then the next day (the fun began) kristin and lauren had to work... so it was just dan, hannah and i. we got bored so we walked around and found this long road... and used it for a runway. and so we practiced our model walks and took pictures... and we found a speed limit sign and advertized it. then we went back to dans car and drove around... and that's when The System found us. and from then on we took rides in dans car in the same exact places at exactly 20 after and 10 till of every hour... and listened to gwen stafani at different parts of the ride (she's our leader)... and yeah. if we broke any of the rules, we weren't "following the system" and we would be punished. we wrote "the ride" and "follow the system" all over the back of his car with our fingers (that's what we called it... "the ride") and yeah. that basicly ate up our whole day.

that night we went to the Jigger Shop (which, chad had never been there and thought it was an adult bookstore) and we all got ice cream... and devin and rachel got the same thing and both got sick. so we plan to sue them. ha. devin got it worse than rachel tho. i felt so bad. poor devin.

anywho the next day was church and then we left from there.

then was janelles baby shower... which devin was supposed to meet me there... but then never showed up... so it was just me and alita.... and chad and sam for a bit... but they left pretty soon after we got there. so then we saw a bunch of ppl we'd went to the beach with before... like, this old guy named Lee... he's HILARIOUS... he's my hero. i love him.

anywho... that was the camping weekend. HOPEFULLY i'll HAVE pictures ONE of these days... COUGH COUGH

so yeah. i don't feel like typing anymore so that's all for now.

laters

-=car*ssa=-

the queen of glass

[<3]

This Mess Of Life
by meee

Here I stand, This is me.
It's the best I'll ever be.
I know I'm broken, hurt and frail,
Will You look past those times I've failed?

I won't deny it, I've done You wrong.
I can't believe You've held on so long.
Take my life, I don't want it.
It's too hard for me to fix.

Lord, please take this mess of life.
Help me escape all my strife.
Stop me from running back for more.
I wish I'd come back You before.
When I ran away from You
Your arms were there to run back to
I took my time, distroyed my life
I was to weak, thought I could fight.
When I fell down You ran to me
And took my burdens, now I'm free.

yeah. it's kinda gay. feel free to make fun.